Barneyisfat

It's the kind of day where you just want to get back in bed and go to sleep.

I had an extremely difficult test. I didn't have time to make lunch so I grabbed some Subway. It's been so long since I've eaten fast food that it made me sick. I tore the entire backside of my pants our getting into my car. The guy at the full service station accidentally gave me super-extreme gas (so I can go from 0-60 in 3.5 seconds, but I was charged 2.63 per gallon) when I know I asked for regular. I forgot about my homework for a class - it's not on the sylabus so when I checked to see if I had any homework last night I thought I didn't. A handicapped woman pulled out in front of me on Broad st and almost killed me, and then proceeded to drive 35 the ENTIRE FRICKEN WAY to school. I was a minute late for class (1 minute!), but the professor always makes a really big deal if you show up to his class late so I went home. I'm sitting on my bed right now fighting off the thought of "make the world go away" and trying to gently remind myself that "His grace is sufficient."

[[[I have been scarred so deep by life and cold despair,and brittle bones were broken far beyond repair.I have leveled lies so deep, the truth may never find.And inside my faithless heart, I stole things never mine.If mercy falls upon the broken and the poor,Dear Father, I will see you, there on distant shores.I have toiled for countless years and ever felt the cost,and I've been burned by this world's cold,like leaves beneath the frost.On my knees I've crawled to You, bleeding myself dry.But the price of life is more, than I could ever buy.And off of the blocks,I was headstrong and proud,at the front of the line for the card-carrying, highbrowed.With both eyes fastened tight,yet unscarred from the fight.Running at full tilt, my sword pulled from its hilt.It's funny how these things can slip away,our frail deeds, the last will wave good-bye.It's funny how the hope will bleed away,the citadels we build and fortify. Good-Bye.Night came and I broke my stride,I swallowed hard, but never cried.When grace was easy to forget,I'd denounce the hypocrites,casting first stones, killing my own.You would unscale my blind eyes,and I stood battered, but more wise,fighting to accelerate,shaking free from crippling weight.With resilience unsurpassed,I clawed my way to You at last.And on my knees, I wept at Your feet,I finally believed, that You still loved me.Healing hands of God have mercy on our unclean souls once again.Jesus Christ, Light of the World,burning bright within our hearts forever.Freedom means love without condition,without beginning or an end.Here's my heart, let it be forever Yours,only You can make every new day seem so new.]]] - Five Iron Frenzy, On Distant Shores.

That about sums it up right now. This song has special importance to me. Other than just being amazing, this song was found by a friend when he was about to give up on God. He found the lyrics on a piece of paper, placed precariously on a rock, on a windy day, at the bottom of the Falls. This song gives hope when I refuse to.