Everest

"from the depth of the pacific
to the height of everest
and still the world is smoother
than a shiny ball-bearing
so i take a few steps back
and put on a wider lens
and it changes your skin,
your sex, and what your wearing
distance shows your *silhouette*
to be a lot like mine
like a sphere is a sphere
and all of us here
have been here all the time
yeah, we've been here all the time*

you brought me to church
cinder blocks, flourescent light
you brought me to church
at seven o'clock on a sunday night
and the band was rockin'
and the floors were scrubbed clean
and everybody had a tambourine

so i took a deep breath and became
the white girl with the hair
and you sat right beside me
while everybody stared
and through the open window
i think the singing went outside
and floated up to tell
all the stars not to hide
'cuz by the time church let out
the sky was much clearer
and the moon was so beautiful
that the ocean held up a mirror

as we walked home we spoke slowly
we spoke slow
and we spoke lowly
like it was taking more time
than usual to choose
the words to go
with your squeaky sandal shoes
like time is not a thing
thats ours to lose

from the height of the pacific
to the depths of the everest..."

I love this song by Ani DiFranco. I realize more and more the privilege it is to be part of God's redemptive plan. The joy it is to share the good news of Jesus Christ with those around us. The grace behind my small part in the story.

Sometimes I think that God will be so disappointed in me that God will stop using me. I have this ridiculously human fear that God's grace will shrivel up and die and I will be left alone in the squalor of my sinful choices. And yet, I am continually surprised by God's grace. I am reminded that God has a redemptive plan and I am part of it. With all of my wrong God still uses me. God still has a plan for me - God can and does still use even me for the great good.

Merciful Heavenly Father, thank you for using me in small ways to affect others. Thank you for forgiving me of my sins although they are numerous. God, when I fail - and I will - I want to have no fear, but rather to live in the knowledge of your grace. Thank you for including me, Lord.